A Longing Heart

Sometimes I forget how much I miss living in Haiti until I start talking to someone who has never heard me say anything about it. I started a new Bible study on Wednesday night with Hope Fellowship Church. We are reading the book The Story with the "mid-20s to mid-30s" group. I was extremely hesitant to commit to it, but one of the girls talked me in to it. My excuse for so long was I'M NOT MID-20S!!!! Don't say that! She assured me that it was ok for me to be younger so I hopped on board.

I was relying on my friend Adam to be there so that it wouldn't be awkward walking in to a house full of people I didn't really know. About an hour before I was set to leave, Adam told me he would be working and wasn't going to make it. I went back and forth on deciding if I was going to go, but I ended up going. As we sat in a circle and introduced ourselves, everyone would say "this is my husband blah blah" or "this is my wife so and so."

And then it got to me.

"Ummmm, I'm not really sure where my husband is right now." Literally. Luckily, everyone laughed and we were able to move on. There was one other single girl there so I wasn't alone in my "no husbandness."

The study was great and we delved in to talking about creation and Noah. After it was over, everyone was just hanging out downstairs, and I started talking to the other single girl, Jessica. In my introduction, I mentioned that I lived in Haiti for a year, so she began asking me questions about my time there.

Before I knew it, I was telling her all about the many things that I encountered there. I began to remember all the good, the bad, the pain, the happy times, the teaching moments, and everything in between.

After the conversation, I longed to be there. I do know that Nashville is my home for a reason right now, but my heart is missing those kids. Even all the pain I went through was worth the end result.

I'm really excited about the opportunities I have had this year. Working at a high school has reminded me of my love for teenagers. I want to be active in their lives and show them the love of Jesus. I've made so many great connections with several of the students, and I pray that I continue to build those and remind them of Christ's love for them.

I guess what I'm saying is... As much as I miss Haiti, I absolutely LOVE my job!